My husband got the position and we are scrambling to get things done and organized for our move in less than 11 days!!!
I am having quite the mix of feelings. I am happy and excited but at the same time I am sad and feeling nostalgic about leaving my home town. I have lived here for 39 years. It is all that I know.
I will miss:
- my family & friends. I have a small number of real friends and it hurts to think about having to start that process of finding a friend scary and very anxiety inducing.
- my culture. I will miss that the area that I live in is heavily influenced by the Portuguese culture. I could grab whatever food that I grew up eating at any time by simply driving down the street to the local market or restaurant. I may have to break my Whole30 short to enjoy some of it before I leave.
- my independence. I love that at any time I can simply get into my car and go. I know these streets and I am comfortable going out alone on any journey. I will miss that ability of knowing where I am at all times.
Today I woke up ambivalent about the whole thing. I know it is the right move for me and my family but the ending of this chapter of my life makes me feel a bit sad. I can't help that.
But, never having to worry about shoveling or falling on snow and ice again makes me very very happy!!!